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The Control Room Floor / Skittish about a return
« on: January 20, 2018, 07:17:49 PM »
Folks, some of you might remember me from a similar topic awhile back. Now I honestly feel a bit like I'm crawling back with my tail between my legs. I've always struggled with finding an ATC home, in part because long-undiagnosed anxiety made me very sensitive to criticism, and I easily gave up -- especially when that criticism came from myself. Most recently, I was a member of Denver, and one night in the middle of a depressive episode, a fellow contoller rubbed me the wrong way during a training session through no fault of his own, and I disappeared and didn't look back.
But now I want to come back, but I'm afraid whichever ARTCC I choose will look at my record over the last 14 years and think I'm a troublemaker.
I guess my question is, how do I approach my on-again, off-again relationship with VATSIM/VATUSA since 2004? And how do any fellow controllers out there with anxiety/depression (which, in all honesty, I'm now on meds for, but still have my bad days...) deal with their struggles?
I'm a good guy, really...even if I don't feel like it sometimes. :/ And I'm sorry if this is TMI, but it's how I best process things.
But now I want to come back, but I'm afraid whichever ARTCC I choose will look at my record over the last 14 years and think I'm a troublemaker.
I guess my question is, how do I approach my on-again, off-again relationship with VATSIM/VATUSA since 2004? And how do any fellow controllers out there with anxiety/depression (which, in all honesty, I'm now on meds for, but still have my bad days...) deal with their struggles?
I'm a good guy, really...even if I don't feel like it sometimes. :/ And I'm sorry if this is TMI, but it's how I best process things.