Kadin,
First of all, I would like to echo Brads thoughts above - listening to the professionals is a great learning tool. As far as developing yourself - I would suggest taking advantage of VATSIM's Pilot Training Center (
https://ptd.vatsim.net/). This is a voluntary ratings program which will teach you the fundamentals of flying on the network
in style. Once you have the knowledge, you will develop confidence - and once that happens, you have the keys to the network.
Welcome to the world of VATSIM -